Thanks

So apparently people actually read some of the stuff that I have written. I never really thought that would happen. Now to date I have had only four confirmations that anybody has read my previous posts, but that is four more than I expected. The last two days have been absolutely filled to the brim with laughter, love, and friendship. I am so thankful that I have been able to enjoy the company of friends for th last few days, it has been a tremendous blessing. To escape from what some may call my "brooding mind" has been fantastic. Lately I have been so ridiculously happy with my life that it seems absurd to want to leave it. Leaving CC might well be one of the most monumentally sad things that I ever do. The friends I have made here and the memories we have all created together has been one of the greatest experiences of my life. My hope is that I am able to take those experiences and hold onto them that I can continue to grow and learn in the face of new challenges with old memories to reinforce my values and ideals.

I often question my own courage in the face of adversity. Will I be able to overcome hardship and even success without becoming jaded and cold? Will I always be able to soak up laughter like a sponge? But then I realize this the reason Kierin is in my life. She provides me those oppurtunities to soak up laughter, she reminds me why we laugh, why we love, and why we dream foolish dreams of fantastical natures. She is my constant reminder that foolish dreams when pursued with enough passion come to fruition in reality. She is my Joy and my light and my courage in the face of overwhelming doubt or pessimisim (sp.). Anyway I really never intended this to be a tribue to Kierin, so I think I will stop there so that she is not too embarassed if she ever actually meets any of the four people that apparently read my mostly incoherent ramblings.

For right now at this very moment I am entirely, wonderfully, and joyously content.

Trevor Lance Isham