Stress

Really stressed right now. That is about all I can say. I just feel like this whole job thing comes crashing down on me once every week. I just have these awful moments where I see my whole life coming down to whether or not I can find a stupid job this next year and then I realize that I still don't have one and that is so upsetting right now. My friends are moving into deeper stages of interviews, getting offers, etc. and it has taken me three stinking weeks just to get three resumes submitted. Plus the entire time I realize that I missed the boat leaving from the pier and that I am currently attempting to jump on the ship as it slips away from the dock. AHHHHH I just really wish that something would present itself and I could just say "Yes." So far every oppurtunity has been so much more complicated than it originally seemed. Plus about the only good offer I have gotten is from a company that really does not line up with my skillset at all.

I know that I have so much more time to figure this all out and that the job is going to come, but sometimes it just overwhelms me and I write things like this...

The thing is I am not daunted by the interviews or the resume application or any of that. I know what I have to offer, I know what the firms are looking for, and I am really not that afraid of rejection. The painful stressful part is this in between stage, where you are whittling the field and constantly trying to give yourself the best possible chance of getting an interview at these companies. That stage is long, annoying, stressful, and just difficult. Anyway I am laboring far too long on all of this, I just need to take a few deep breaths and remind myself of everything I have going for me at this point in my life and that a job will most certainly come in some capacity or another.

I should be rejoicing in the last few months of college but instead I have spent the last few weeks spending almost all of my time emailing back and forth with contacts, job opps, and thesis ideas. I just pray now that I can find a job sooner rather than later. I know that it will come, I, as always, just want it to come Now. All right time to end this little rant so I can go take some deep breaths and enjoy life for a few minutes before sleep.