Anticipation

Words and excitement have flowed from me like light from the sun. From one perspective these rays may look focused and concentrated but in reality they are as scattered as snowflakes. Each idea flutters down from the sky and finds it's rating place.  The moment is vast approaching and the closer it gets the more surreal the moment feels.  

My ah ha moment is almost upon me.

This morning I took time to take stock of the last year of my life.  

Here are some highlights. Graduated from college. Moved halfway across the country. Left every friend I had. Proposed. Got engaged (these two happened within seconds) Got a new job. My first job... Moved to a new city. Learned to live with a roomate, well kind of the jury is still out on whether I have shown any development on that front. Exhibit A being the piles of clothes that are currently in random places all over the apartment.

Now when you list it out like that it appears to be quite a year.   

However in the past couple of months I have never really thought it that much more life filled than amy other. I dwell on this and discover that much of this is due to my underlying confidence. Most people who spend time with me quickly realize that my substantially healthy confidence is one of my most commanding traits. For better or worse my confidence usually thrusts me down paths in life with a certain ferocity and strength of purpose that I understand can be difficult to match or understand.

This strength of purpose is what has taken control this year. In the absence of certainty about the future I have allowed this side of me to take the lead. This is why I have never doubted my wedding tomorrow why I for the most part have not thought top much about it. Because my strength of purpose and my belief in my destiny and fate concludes that nothing other than tomorrow will occur. Time will do as it always has and march ever onward. It is our duty to pay not as much attention to the ticking of the hands but  to the turning of the gears in our own lives.

This will most likely be my last post before the wedding. For those of you coming thank you and I will be happy to see you there. If you read this after the fact I hope you had a spectacular time. For tomorrow I marry Kierin and our destinies and our fates will from that day forward march forward into the fog of time together; hands clasped with smiles on our faces for we are assured of the others' presence on this perilous journey that We have walked for thousands of years. I pray that if Kierin and I come upon you in our path that it be a blessing and a gift to you. Thank you and with much love, Trevor